teeney.bear

self serving neurotic narcissist

nar·cis·sism [ nrssə sìzzəm ]

noun  Definition:   1. self-admiration: excessive self-admiration and self-centeredness

2. personality disorder: in psychiatry, a personality disorder characterized by the patient’s overestimation of his or her own appearance and abilities and an excessive need for admiration. In psychoanalytic theory, emphasis is placed on the element of self-directed sexual desire in the condition.

neurotic [njʊˈrɒtɪk]

adj (Psychiatry) of, relating to, or afflicted by neurosisn (Psychiatry) a person who is afflicted with a neurosis or who tends to be emotionally unstable or unusually anxiousneurotically adv





1. i hate bad manners.  this i think is because of my mother, for as long as i have know she has never asked me to do something, just always demands it… i think because of this when ever someone doesn’t say ‘please’ or simply ‘can i’  i see red.
2. i worry, a lot. 
3. my mother is an alcoholic. 
4.  kid dynamite and bouncing souls songs give me goose bumps. particularly never met the gooch by kid dynamite and joe lies by the bouncing souls.
5. i think i can sing good, and i get so fucking stoked when people tell me the same… but i always play it off.
6. i think my modesty is bullshit, cause i know i m awesome, but i don’t want to sound like a cunt.
7. i m having the time of my life… but sort of having a difficult time convincing myself. 
8. i m terrified of being alone.
9. i hate when people talk about themselves, ha ha.. yeah.. i know. 
10. i don’t believe that you can only have one best friend. 
11. i don’t like fragile women, but i find it oddly attractive in men.
12. i talk  a lot.  even more when i drink, i always wake up the next morning with a scratchy voice.
13. i didn’t start drinking till recently.. i m not sure why.. but i know i didn’t before because i didn’t want to be my mom.  but i still have a weird feeling of guilt when i do.
14. i recently told ken that i would probably talk 65% less if i wasn’t quoting movies, and i really think its true.
15. i was recently asked, for the first time in a really long time, what my top 5 favorite movies and bands are and i forgot.
16. when people think i m nice i know they don’t get me…
17. i used to shave off my eyebrows and then draw them on.. god thats so embarrassing.
18. i don’t think any one will read this, but i m still typing it.
19. two emotions that i am really bad at are jealousy and embarrassment. 
20. i want to learn to play the drums, i think i would be really good at it.
21. it bums me out when guys ‘holla’ at me. its kind of funny to laugh at later, but i still find it insulting.
22. i think i am funny… not stand up comedian funny, but i like when i can make my friends laugh.
23. i am a very honest person, but i have trust issues.
24. i watch a lot of movies, but still have never seen robo cop or any of the god father movies.
25. i m bad at meeting new people, i think i make bad first impressions.
26. 2 of my girl friends have told me that they either hated me or thought i was a bitch when they first met me, and for some reason i took it as a compliment.
27. i think a lot of my personality flaws are because of my mom.. but i wouldn’t ever say that cause i hate to blame my problems on her.
28. in conjunction with the one above.. i had to work really hard to be ok.  i think that is one of my biggest accomplishments in life.
30. i don’t think i have a type when it comes to boys.. but i know that i am usually attracted to dark hair and big noses.
31. i am really looking forward to being in love again..